Jon Grabowski
ONLY MORE SO

You see it was very much like this.
In the flatland dregs, the fat-coated
soldiers knocked at the door, so a woman
was forced, with a gritty smile,
to invite them in, to sit by her
yellow fire, to swallow up her walls.

In the corner her husband rubbed
a wooden rifle, tapped wooden boots against
a wooden floor, thinking, thinking
visitors are cold as bad luck.
He looped his fingers under his belt
and turned to gravel.

The soldiers, making circles in the dust
on the hearth, asked the woman to remember
the unremembered: the jewelry sold for food,
the Moravian lace curtains.

Where are the rings? Two and now one?
The woman spun her wedding band around her
finger and gave them her best,
"we were here before you" silver glare.

Surrounded by dust and half-opened words,
the woman's mottled eyes brought a dull patina
to the repeated questions. The sharp wool collars
of the soldiers pointed south; inside,
the crudely made benches evaporated into firewood.

It was like this: the woman's hips swayed
like harmonicas when the men watched her fetch
water and run it into the basin, cracking
ice with her fingernails.

They asked her, Why do trees mean? and
What does water stand for?
while their stares mocked the broken
windows, and pain, itself, counted the woman's
buttons as they easily slipped through the stitching
of her clothes.

You see it was all so simple:
they wanted the smooth golden of her neck,
the warm nest of her skirt;
her loss shifting like daggers beneath their skin.

As wind fragmented, as doors burned,
as fires latched, the last woman, this last
woman, clasped a bowl to her chest knowing, knowing,
what the snow outside pretended, knowing
that nothing important ever belonged to her.

That now she must survive by owning air,
holding back the red, the full, the bare,
the proud canvases of flat language paper
that once told her everything she needed
to know.

It was like this, only more so.